My first reaction to Haylee

It was a cold winter December night, I was sicker than a dog for a week straight. My husband and I finally got annoyed with the coughing and runny noses hours upon hours each day. He asked me what I wanted from the store as far as medicine goes, so I told him- NyQuil, icy hot and cough drops. So he went out into the cold late night, and brought back the  medicine. I looked in the bag to find a generic home pregnancy test. I looked up at my husband more puzzled than ever. He looked at me and said"go take it." So I went into the bathroom, and a waited the results very scared, anxious, and nervous all at the same time. Once the result came onto the screen, my face lit up, and I yelled for my husband. I showed him the test results, and I stood in front of the mirror  while my husband stood behind me and wrapped his soft,gentle hands around my waist. He kissed my neck and said," I love you," and smiled. We went into the living room, I asked him how he knew to buy the test all he said was,"fatherly instinct." He called his parents all excited and joyful! We waited to tell my parents for many reasons. His parent's are both thrilled to be first time grandparents. My mother is pretty pumped as well!! My father on the other hand, I think he is happy, but at the same time he acts as if he is still pissed at me for getting married and having my own life, and doing my own thing. I don't know what to make of his reaction to anything I do in life anymore.

When I first saw the test result, I was so excited, but had and still have so many of them same questions pouring through my head. 

Uncomfortable Comfort Zone

The past scoops me up
and hovers over the depths of my emotions,
drawing the lines of reactions
and taking me closer to undoubted results.
Experience guides me,
ever reminding me of times gone by
and luring me only
to predictable things to come
somehow holding me captive,
allowing no room for wreck less chance
How comfortable, the familiar
How foolish the secret desire
to venture into the strangeness
of new surroundings.
Yet, change it proactive
A misty glimpse of things anticipated
but not yet reality calls to me,
causing the stirring of the unfamiliar
to quicken my spirit,
leaving me gently shaken,
wanting more

I am from a Small Town

I am from two young teenagers, not yet out of high school.
I am from a small and content town.
I am from a warm and strict set of rules.
I am from homemade food and backyard games.
I am from two young teenagers, not yet our of high school.
I am from cornbread and chicken dinners.
I am from a simple and hard life.
I am from city and town.
I am from two young teenagers, not yet out of high school.
I am from thin and thick.
I am from Ireland and Germany.
I am from loving and hard parents.
I am from two young teenagers, not yet out of high school.
I am from a small town.