For the first time, in a long time, I can honestly tell myself I am happy with where I am in my life. A lot of people wether it be friends or family members disagree with where my life is. I don't know if it's because they are jealous, or pissed because they can't stand to see me happy with life, when they are so miserable in their own. My main reason walked into my life around this time a year ago. He is my pride and joy. As the day came for us too finally meet after about three weeks talking on the phone and sending pictures, I was nervous and excited at the same time. I noticed a black car pass the house, slow, then my phone rang and it was him! I answered and told him that he passed the house, he turned around. The moment he got out of his car, and looked at me, I walked down the stairs and my jaw dropped. He looked so perfect, and I had butterflies in my stomach and felt like a little kid in puppy love again. I knew as soon as our eyes met that I was going to marry this man. And long be hold five incredible months later I married him! His name is Justin. He has given me the inspiration and courage to be myself, and too be the best girl I can be. Justin is one of the two reasons I get up in the morning (even though I hate getting out of bed, because my bed is so comfortable :) ). My other reason is the incredible baby girl I have growing inside of me.
The way Justin puts his head on my stomach and talks to our daughter is the sweetest thing I have witnessed in a long time, by a man. When he talks to her, it puts the biggest smile on my face, and I fall in love with him every day over again as if it were the first time we met.
People in my life think I am crazy for marrying so young, and having a baby so young. But I am happy and comfortable with my life. If you don't like the way my life is, then get out of it, and stop talking to other people about me, and how I am fucking up by marrying young and having a baby young without a stable life. So I may not have a stable life, I don't know where I'm going in life, I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. All I do know is the only two people I need in my life are my amazingly perfect husband and my daughter. I am going to be the best damn mother to this little girl that I know how to be, and if you don't like it, then get out of my life!!! I don't need all the negative people around me or my family. I need people in my life that are going to be there for me when I need them, I need people who want to be in my life and want to have something to do with my family. I want people who don't talk behind my back about my life and my family.
I am 100% totally and completely happy with my life, and my family I helped create with a great husband. He is always there for me when I need him. He always makes me feel complete and happy. He is the reason I am trying to better my life and trying to get my life figured out before my daughter arrives in about ten weeks!!
People need to understand that I am not going to change for anyone, except myself, my husband, and my daughter. They are the only two people that will love and support me through everything and not complain as I do it. People in my family say they support me, and when it comes down to it, instead of telling me that they think I am fucking up, they go and tell other people in the family who have nothing to do with me to begin with. Then I hear it from them, what the other person said.
My husband is there for me, and I am there for him and he is all I need!
I love you Justin with all of my heart! <3
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